God knows....

I start this blog fighting back tears, trying to type through a blur....

I was sitting on the front porch tonight enjoying the cool, after rain air and watching my sweet boys play baseball in the front yard. Really just enjoying a lazy, nice evening when I received a word that one of my dearest, sweetest friends had miscarriages her 3rd child. I just sat their and cried. Thankful for a comforting husband. I sobbed longer than I might normally have. You see, the past several weeks I have received word of sad news:

-3 weeks ago a dear friend of ours from seminary suddenly passed away. She was only 29 years old.....
-1 week ago we got a text that another one of our friends miscarried their 3rd child as well...
-less than a week ago I received an email from my mama Mel that my sweet Aaron had some test done on his heart (from cancer chemo) and there was some damage to the heart.....this being the biggest blow of all (I will blog about this when I feel emotionally ready)
-And then today, my sweet, sweet friend lost her baby.....

Right now I am very emotional and mourning all these things but I take comfort in knowing my beloved God knows how I feel. He GAVE his son over to this sinful world and watched him suffer a torture and a painful death ALL for these lives. I can come to his feet, sobbed, bare my heart and leave these burdens their knowing they will be taken care of. The hard part is being patient with HIS time. Beth said once, "Time does not heal all things. Only God heals. Only God restores"

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted" Matthew 5:4
In John 16:22 Jesus promises us that one day their will be no more mourning, only Joy and NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT JOY FROM US!

Oh for that day......